But you know what, life goes on. My life doesn't just stop moving because of something that didn't work out, or something that ended. Time doesn't stop. Nor does anything else in life.
In a lot of ways, this chapter, phase, whatever you call it, was a lesson for me to realize that I've let things drag on for too long. I made the people around me suffer, and be sad with me. And I have to mend it. I have to patch things over, and show them that I'm not afraid of ending, and frightened by beginnings.
For once in my life, I was special to someone, important even. But that ceased and so did me. For a long time I was losing the real "Charlene" and became this person I didn't recognize. I don't want to be that person anymore. I need to be me. I have to be me. And if anyone isn't okay with that, then fine. But I am who I am, and I will continue being this vampire-crazed, crazy stalker girl. And I think, I'm not afraid. I am not going to let anyone walk over me like dirt. I'm going to live a little and enjoy my life while it lasts. Life is a gift, not a given right.
Like I said, back to my original topic, I'm going to let this blog go. But it doesn't mean that I won't have another. I will never stop blogging, for now anyways.
So look out everyone. Charlene's gonna come back soon.
I just want to say something that I've never had the chance to say. I want to say thank you to all of my friends. They mean the world to me, and they are the only people that told me the cold hard truth when I needed it. They never gave me bullshit or fucked with me in any way. And I just love them to death. They've helped me a lot during this dark period, and I wish they'll be with me for the rest of my life.
"Life is not only about what you do, it's also about who you do it with."
That's all for now, folks. Toodles :)
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